Margaret Ryan, January 1st, 2012

Someone poured water in our new TV so the new year begins with 34 women forced to find ourselves with one less diversion to keep us bound to self-delusions.

As hard as it is to face reality, prison leaves you a lot of time to face up to the mess of your own making. Whoever sold me the lie of addiction sold me into a life I hate, yet know well.

Haidi just received another year set-off. She reminds me of herself at her age. People love and support her every need. Beauty is a blessing to be grateful for. I remember how Wes would make sure I had enough in here. Mike would also. Now that my beauty has faded with my youth and good health, I am left without basic necessities. A charity case among charity cases. Prostitution isn’t even an option under the current circumstances. I used to view prostitutes as sorry low-lifes. Now I know they are people just like me who were left with no options. A hard lesson to learn about judging others.

This year is new and fresh; a year I desire to accomplish many goals in.