Tony Orona, November 2nd, 2011

Halloween just passed and we didn’t even get anything special for dinner. What a sham! Not even a little piece of candy. I hope they do better on Turkey day because I sure would like me a piece of some turkey. Last Christmas or I mean last Thanksgiving we didn’t get any turkey so I’m not gonna get my hopes up. I remember how we used to get good food in here but it seems like there’s just one budget cut after another and it really does affect us. They don’t even give us salt and pepper on our trays no more because they said if we want some then we should buy some on canteen. Well what about the people who are indigent? I guess they’re just not that important and are left to fend for themselves. Don’t misunderstand me and think that I’m one of them people who complain about all kinds of things that I don’t think is right because I’m really not. I try to stay under the radar and away from all the drama. Don’t get me wrong… I won’t let nobody speak way outta hand to me or if there’s something going on out on the yard that I don’t agree with then I have no problem speaking my opinion and that’s probably why I stay in the hole but I feel that I come at everyone respectfully, so there should be no reason why they can’t do the same. I hate when people act all ugly to you but don’t never tell you what their problem is! And then when you do tell them if they got something they wanna get off their chest they act like they don’t have no clue as to what you’re talking about. Yeah there’s a lot of that in here, but I guess there’s a lot of everywhere huh. But, any hoot I just recently found out that one of my homies decided to drop-out the other day. Most people probably don’t even understand what I mean by that but basically he decided that he didn’t want to be on the main line in an “active” yard anymore. It’s ironic how the world gots such a bad opinion on gang members. I’m not in no way trying to promote gangs because I wouldn’t want my kids involved but not all of us are terrible people. I know that there’s a lot of gang members out there in the world who’ve victimized innocent people but that don’t mean that we’re all like that. Well, honestly, I can’t speak for how the next man presents himself but in here… if you come in with a rape or a child molestation or elder abuse or for hurting a kid then believe me… you’ll wish you hadn’t. All that is looked down upon in here and everyone has to answer to someone for his decisions. But that’s moving off my original point. I’m a high school graduate and I was enrolled in college. I tried to join the military so that I could get away from the streets and I’m a very family oriented human. I pray and I believe in god and I always try to be a better man. I’ve never been a bully because I think that shows your insecurity in yourself as a man to try to prove how “big and tough” you are. I’ve had a pretty rough childhood with my mom being an alcoholic and drug addict and my dad in and out of prisons back then. I’ve been through foster care and know what it’s like to feel as if you’re not wanted as a kid. But I don’t blame any one for my troubles and I’ve never tried to use all that as an excuse to make bad choices in life. I’ve always owned up to my mistakes! I’ll continue tomorrow so I can send this out! Sorry!
Till tomorrow,